A Road to Consciousness

A Road to Consciousness

For example, I remember when I won the Diligence prize at school, I was told I would never become top of the class but would win more Diligence prizes. I took this to mean I wasn’t as intelligent as others and therefore working hard was what I needed to rely on. Amazing how this eventually evolved into me always putting in a massive amount of effort to new interests and never accepting that I might be naturally gifted in some of these.

By the time I was into my thirties I was pretty much clear on who I was as a person and my character. In summary I believed I was not particularly talented, but able to work really hard. Following the rules, respecting authority and not exposing my weaknesses became my “winning formula” for having a good life and being relatively successful.

Recognising this early life-shaping has allowed me to reflect on the many other early experiences that shaped what I believed about myself as a personality, my capabilities and limitations. However, for most of my working life I lived unconsciously in this approach, often struggling in it but never questioning it, and even reinforcing it. All my successful results and decisions, of which there were many, I attributed unquestioningly to this approach, never acknowledging that it might also be significantly limiting my continued growth and transformation as a human being. I sometimes attempted in times of disappointment, failure and letting myself and others down, to adopt a new attitude and behaviour but these genuine attempts for “character change” were still shaped and anchored in what I believed was the “Real Me”.

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Tony TurnbullTony Turnbull is a vastly experienced manager and consultant. He worked for 25 years in the consumer products industry in supply chain, HR and product launch functions and spent the next 25 years consulting to top international companies. His approach focuses on how individuals and organisations can achieve breakthrough improvements through building powerful working relationships. Tony has a passion for innovation and is continually inventing new leadership approaches that keep his clients performing at the edge of their capabilities.

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